Im so tired of doing the same thing day in and out. so tired of being in this place i just want to scream and shout.. so tired of dealing with this stress every day. i sat down and started to pray. but it hasnt help i havent found another way.
im tired of being in pain, tired of the cold rain. tired of you telling me what to do. tired of the bull shit lines i get fed. tired of laying down in this bed.
and im tired of writting this..
Her friend who said he would return never did for a long time. So she still walks this road alone. Hoping to find some place or some one she can call her own. Then one day off in the distance she seen her old friend and her new. Walking with them were people she did not agree with. Both babies in her eye and in most. So you left me for this she thought how.. how could you. Was it she wasnt good enough or was she just too old or in her eyes was she not fat enough because she was skinnier then them.
She looked both girls up and down as they did the same to her.. Her heart broke even more.. She ran and ran and ran some more. With tears in her eyes and makeup running down her face, her hair all in shambles and her heart no longer filled with grace.
She was hurt in a more serious way…
The one who she thought showed her the way, said he would change and was sorry for his ways said he would find her again the next day. The next day came and passed.. He didnt show she thinks he is an ass.
The other one did catch up with her finally and spit in the babies face and said i really am sorry lead me the way. She never thought it be this way but for now they are walking again just for a little way..
Who know what this road will bring.. who knows what shall pass. as there still may be things hidden, Both hidden now and in her past.
Through the years, through all the heart aches and pain, through her sickness
and health, and through friendships that last and go, she was beginning to
find no hope. Just walking down the path of life, and feeling she is getting
nowhere.
And one spring day, she encounters a new face, someone she could relate with
and take them on her way. Someone to listen to her views and grasp at a new
concept of life. She and this new face walked some way, and walked and walked
this life until one fall day.
This day they decided to stop and sit down and take a break. They sat there
and looked into eachothers eyes. She was thinking in her head, please let
this be real and not like the others. Please God by your sweet grace, let us
both finish this race, together.
And something magical occured that night. They showed loved, and said “I love
you” with all their might. And he said its ok, Im not like the others. she
believed in him, and they got back up and walked for a few more days.
Suddenly he stops and looks the other way. Then he starts running in the other
direction as fast as he can. Leaving her alone to just be there and stand.
She is thinking in her head, what is going on, what have I done wrong? She
stands there in the same spot for a few days, he finally returns and he’s
brought a new face.
He turns to her and says “we just cant be, I have found someone knew, Im going
to take the road that leads this other way” She stands there and cries and
asks God why. Why have you done this too me? After days of still standing in
the same spot he left her, she finally dries her tears.
She hears something in the distance what could it be? Was a little bird that
said follow me. So with nothing else left to loose she did, and eventually
found a face she was familiar with. The little bird said “Its ok go follow him”
and thats exactly what she did.
He lead her down this dirt road into the woods. A long and windy road at that.
At the end of the road was this beautiful lake. So quite and peaceful she
forgot that her heart had even ached. He laid her down and made love so sound,
made her realize there could be something more to this life.
And when it was done she sat there and thought. About how perfect it was and
the person she lost could never give her what he did. She forgot about it him
and was in complete bliss. Her heart was only aching because she needed another
kiss.
Later that night they departed just for awhile. As he walked away he said,
“go on its ok, i’ll be back, keep your head up and smile.”
She did run into her lost face that night as well, she ignored him, for the
way he made her felt. She seen his other face and laughed. Thinking Oh My God,
he left me for that? And just then a bird flew from up above, it carried her
a message of love. She read it and turned away, walking and walking and never
looked back…
..So i finally have a few minutes to rant and get this off my chest
no names being mentioned here..
i have a friend, yeah i do…. surprising huh???
he was dating a much younger person who was no good for him.. and everyone told him about it… so one day he finally listened… and called it quits then she like kinda stalked him made an hr trip just to eat where he works at.. and at the same time the cops i guess where going on a drug bust and i was taking him to work and saw his ex pull in the store and like hauled ass outta there cuz i was affraid she was gonna start something.. and then a few days later the cops come in asking him where is mustang was etc and he doesnt have one i do and was really freaky.. prolley cuz that night they cops seen me haul ass outta there and it wasnt cuz of them it was cuz of her… and check this shit out.. she has pages of update status’s that says:
im sorry, i want you back.. im gonna show you that we are ment to be together.. I miss you I want you..
(boo hoo poor me shit)
Well first off if you didnt lie to him and be all stupid you would still have him…
secondly whinning like that just makes you look more of a child like you REALLY ARE…
then there is these guys driving this beat up POS van who is supposidly a UC living or staying down the street and another source says he is a thief not a narc i dunno
also i want to mention another crazy drama
well chris got a new car i got his car and sold my green mustang.. haha all mustangs…
anyways so my friend from above story was over with his younger gf at the time hooking up lights in my car, and another person who i thought was my friend came over and low and behold he had a younger female with him as well..
wtf??? and funny thing is, is that the 2nd friend ragged on the first one for doing the same thing he is doing???
so needless to say. i was a little pissed that these bitches were over my house.. i said something to friend number 2 and he was like.. im sorry i wont do it again im so sorry etc.. feeding me a line of BULL FUCKING SHIT.. then says ohh i’ll stop by and see u on monday.. here comes monday no friend.. get a phone call saying im sorry i will come by tuesday.. tuesday no friend.. NO CALL wed. no friend but an evening call asking me to come over and FIX HIS WIFES COMPUTER……….??? WTF? then says ohh come over on sunday.. so no more phone calls til sat which was im not doing anything sunday so dont come over.. ok what ever… didnt want to fix your computer anyway i have better things to do.. so no more phone calls for a week.. I decided to call him and was gonna meet up with him in between his class ya know to say hi.. he says i’ll call u when im switching classes etc.. nope no phone call..
just to let you know.. i dont care… im not gonna sit here and play these games im not that type of person.. you just proved to me your intentions and what ever dude…
next drama shit…
this person at work said something to be about someone else saying something about me and it pissed me off and i just walked out of work.. came back then was time for me to leave anyways.. was off work yesterday and come back this morning and i get an appology.. dunno what happened but yeah..
im over this BS and everyones BS i dont need it, I DONT WANT IT… i want to do my job and come home and watch CSI and play WOW
.so i get this email.. from this chick who just so happened to be the “ex” of a friend a really close friend one who i have known for years and years and was really the only one there for me through thick and thin.. and if you read this im leaving names out LOL
anyways she emails me bitching up a storm because of a photo he has on his computer of him and i… and how he told everyone a bunch of lies about her etc and thats not true etc being a complete child way 2 go…
OMFG seriously do people have anything better to do than to email me bitching at me about shit like that.. GROW UP
but thanks anyways for new content…
i also have more content to write about some other crazy ass shit thats been happening but i have been dealing with the crazy ass shit and havent had time to write it down
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